Erin's Journals

Just a thought… Difficult roads often lead to beautiful destinations. [Zig Ziglar]

So much going on here – not the least of which is a deluge of rain we’re under for a few days – but I’m grateful (with the exception of this afternoon’s community meal deliveries) to pull it all off, indoors.

This half year of COVID has brought myriad changes to people around the world, from how we think (when did science become something people can take political sides on or argue with so confidently?) to how we live our everyday lives.

Much of it has seemed like we’re trying to build a house – or even a sand castle – on a faultline; there’s so much uncertainty from day to day as we eyeball the numbers like a bookie at a sports bar. Are there more cases? Will we be retreating to Stage Two again? Have we entered or are we about to enter the second wave of the pandemic and then what?

So many questions.

As always, when times are uncertain, we take control of what we can: we become part of the solution where possible, instead of adding to the problem. We continue to mourn the death of the normalcy of life before the pandemic and make the best of a bad situation, as we saw last week with so many taking part in Rosh Hashanah services online while missing the usual large family gatherings for the High Holidays.

It’s heartbreaking and, given the cancellations we’ve been witnessing, may foreshadow how the Christmas holidays are going to go this year (that is, if we’re called upon to do so, and then obey the instructions). So much uncertainty.

I’m happy to say that in our professional lives, there has been been growth and even the start of new things! Rob and I had already begun our podcast for the Canadian Real Estate Association called Real Time before the lockdown, having recorded and produced our first episode in California. In a year in which everything could have gone terribly badly, the real estate business has been booming: home sales are up (as are prices) and inventory is at record lows in many parts of Canada. Which brings me to the other new start, which begins today.

In a set-up in our home (our bedroom, which has the best acoustics besides my little studio), we’re getting ready to broadcast live this morning as I host, and Rob makes possible from a technical standpoint, an online annual conference. I’ve had the honour of hosting for CREA at various events across the country, even delivering a keynote when I jumped from emcee into the speaking spot during an Ottawa ice storm in 2018 that prevented Dragons’ Den star Michele Romanow from making the trip. Today, I jump into a different kind of situation.

As of 5:45 am our time, I’m awake and starting to caffeinate (thanks, time zones) and ready for a 7 am PDT kick-off. There are esteemed guest speakers, experts and panelists, and I’ll be tying them all together through the day, encouraging viewer questions and so on. Here’s a shot from our tech rehearsal earlier this week.

I’ll post one pic of the actual event today on FB as it goes on, but we’ve got our fingers crossed that this will go well. Next month, I’m delivering my new keynote speech to a group live via Zoom from the same set-up; in November, yours truly will be called upon to host a big fundraiser for Markham Stouffville Hospital Foundation.

I’m nervous in a different way for each of them, but excited and grateful to have a chance to try new ways to learn my craft. I’ve even informed Speakers’ Spotlight in Toronto, a large talent agency with whom I was just starting to forge a relationship before COVID hit, that I’m doing this now: long distance emceeing and even delivering a keynote, complete with visuals.

The learning curve is steep, but I’m reminded about the new beginnings that come with endings – a perfect message as we segue into the season of fall.

Wish me luck and, if you’re a CREA member, I hope you’ll be joining our inaugural online summit today. I’ve got Rob running the tech as well as scrolling my iPad in a homemade kind of teleprompter behind my computer camera lens.

There’ll be lots of coffee and the voices in my ear will be directing me throughout the six-hour event today. Such a nice change from the usual voices asking me why my Fitbit numbers are so low! You have a lovely day and weekend and we’ll be back with you on Monday. “MAKEUP!”

Just a thought… Hope is being able to see that there is light despite all of the darkness. [Desmond Tutu]

I’ve many things to write about today as a virtual slide show runs through my mind from the weekend past and the days ahead. Work is ramping up. Our joy is through the roof, while sadness over losses, both near to me and in another country entirely, sit heavy on my heart. So come on in, and I promise we’ll make sense of it together.

Friday evening, I felt the highest highs and lowest lows in the course of just a few minutes. As Colin bounced around with the excitement of sharing our “movie and popcorn night” tradition with the grandson of my friend Nancy, we were preoccupied by wrangling their exuberance, getting them seated with their lemonade and snacks and negotiating what movie they’d watch.

Having gotten them settled, I checked my phone and saw remembrances of a great American. “Oh no,” I said to Rob, as I scrolled to confirm what I and millions of others had feared: Supreme Court Justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg had died. Like so many, I was devastated to learn of her passing and frightened at the prospect of another Trump-chosen lifetime appointee to the highest court in America. That heaviness stayed with me throughout the weekend, and continues today. What next, 2020? (Don’t answer.)

On the other side of that darkness, though, was the joy felt while watching two little boys in their pajamas, laughing, playing and eventually lying on the floor watching a show together. Seeing our Colin playing with someone – even though it cut into our own precious cuddle time – was good for the soul, as was the day of games and outdoor activities we shared with him alone on Saturday. How we cherish this new tradition!

I sent my friend and fellow writer/broadcaster/blogger/VO artist/radio vet Lisa a picture of Rob and Colin together on Saturday, in hopes that rather than contrast the joy of our day with the sadness of hers, it would lighten her heart. I think it worked, but on Sunday Lisa messaged me that her mom, dying from cancer and spending her final days in hospice in Southwestern Ontario, had taken a turn for the worse and now was barely responsive.

This came as a surprise: not in that her decline had continued, but that it had resumed so quickly. Just last week, her mom was expressing enormous peace and gratitude for the kindness and comfort she was experiencing after having been moved from hospital to hospice. It warmed my heart to hear the relief and respite in Lisa’s writings; for a time their shared suffering was put on hold. The “rally,” as it’s known, was short-lived but fully appreciated.

Lisa’s put her own life on hold, living at her mom’s condo a few hours from her own home and doing all of the things a good daughter would try to do: in addition to caring for her mom, she’s handling the sometimes overwhelming visitors’ schedule (brief can be best, people!), dealing with one particular neighbour who won’t stop calling or knocking at all hours to ask after her mom’s well-being (despite being implored to just await word, please), and being there for her mom in every way that she can.

In past months, Lisa and I have talked about my mother’s own sudden passing 8 years ago from a brain aneurysm and wondered which is crueler, which is gentler. I’ve often said that there’s no comparing grief, but still, it’s a question we ask ourselves and each other, as close friends can do. And there is just no answer.

Yet in the midst of her hour of darkness, a little godwink came to Lisa yesterday in the form of social media and this tweet.

In a beautiful bit of timing, Lisa was buoyed by the comments and virtual hugs that came from friends and strangers alike, most of whom didn’t know just what was transpiring in her day. Here’s her response.

You can never know how just a few kind words or a gesture (big or small) can change even a few moments in an otherwise awful day.

A simple tweet asking for a few words of admiration for a fellow Londoner was an enormous gift; its responses, a virtual hug for a friend who is suffering.

And witnessing massive numbers of people coming together and donating millions of dollars in the memory of #RBG in the hours following her death helped me to remember that even when we’re feeling at our lowest, when despair clouds our hearts, there is always a light.

Sometimes we need to search for it. And sometimes we can even be that light.

Just a thought… The scars of others should teach us caution. [St. Jerome]

This is a journal that I’m going to ask you to share with anyone you know who might be vulnerable to a scam like this. It is something that happened to me, and I’d really like you to spread the word, if you would, please.

I got a message on my old FB site that I rarely ever go to. (If I could, I’d delete it, but it anchors my public page so I cannot.)

It was from someone saying they were Adriana Iontorno-Palermo, who allegedly works at the York Region School Board. If there IS such a person, she should know that her identity has been hijacked for this scam. I’m not shaming her because I think she’s been a victim here too. Please, if you know her, ask her to check her account.

This person – and I’m going to say “posing” as Adriana – wrote:

Hi Erin. I hope you’re staying safe and healthy.

I responded that I’m well, and that I don’t use that FB to message, but she can find me at www.facebook.com/erindavispage. Then she wrote back that she was well and feeling blessed (smiley emoji). Then in the next text asked:

Do you have knowledge of the federal government’s old age survivors compensation?

I answered sorry, no, I didn’t – thinking she was looking for information. But no, “Adriana” had some for me:

The program is a federal domestic assistance, in conjunction with the federal government is helping by giving out funds (not loan) that they require to carry out their life and helping people above the age of 50 years old.

Next text:

And I got my care cheque delivered to my door a few weeks ago. When they came to my house to deliver my package I saw your name on their website so I was wondering if you got the same type of cheque already.

I answered that I had not and that it was strange I’d be on their website; however there are other Erin Davises out there, sooooo….

Her next text:

Since I got mine a few weeks ago and I did see your name on the list also. (Note the grammatical errors; I get plenty of correspondences with them and don’t judge or care, but it’s a hallmark of scams.) That’s why I decided to check with you and see if you got yours also. But I think you need to check it out. Should i help you with the contact information now?

So I told her if she had a link that might be helpful, or she could email me through my public email address. Here’s her response:

Alright. You can get in touch with them at this number (819) 801- 6084. Text them that you heard about the program and want to get yours also. They will put you through on all the process.

Wow, so helpful, right? This person, with whom I allegedly share two friends, sent me everything I needed to get a magical cheque to my door, simply for being over 50.

In these days of cheques being sent to people in need during COVID shutdowns, this is a SCAM. How do I know? I listened to my gut and it just felt like one. So I did the easiest thing ever: I Googled the phone number and, sure enough, this came up from Haddon Financial, posted August 6. You’re not seeing things; a lot of this is going to look VERY familiar to the texts I got. But there’s also some solid advice in here:

NEW SCAM ALERT
I got a FB message from a friend this morning asking me if I have knowledge about the Federal Government’s Old Age Survivor benefits. I said yes and then was asked to share what I knew.

That led to the following exchange:

THEM: The program is a Federal Domestic Assistance, in conjunction with Federal Government is helping by giving out Funds (not loan) that they require to carry out their life and helping people above the age of 50 years old.

And I got my care cheque delivered to my door step a few weeks ago. When they came to my house to deliver my package I saw your name on their website so I was wondering if you got the same type of cheque already?

ME: The federal govt doesn’t deliver chqs personally and they would never have a person’s name on their website. The federal domestic assistance program has nothing to do with any survivor benefits.

THEM: Since I got mine already and I saw your name on there website also that’s why I thought I should check with you since I got mine already. I think you need to check it out.

ME: What is the website?

THEM: Alright you can reach the agent in charge number at- the Agent name is Mr Joseph (819) 801-6084. you can text him now that you heard about the program and would like to claim yours also, he will put you through on everything.

Let me be very clear here – this is not a real thing. The Federal Domestic Assistance program exists but it’s got nothing to do with survivor benefits and the federal government, CRA, Old Age Security, Canada Pension, Service Canada would NEVER do any of the following:
1. solicit you in the way to apply for benefits
2. suggest that you text them – good grief most govt agencies won’t even accept an email – has to be hard copy mailed, in person delivered or fax. 
3. have the name of an individual on their website – certainly not someone as small as me

I have reported this to the fraud squad so they can add it to their list of ongoing nonsense that is out there. Make sure you speak with your parents and other people in your life who may be vulnerable, in need of money (benefits) or who may be a target of this kind of thing. If you get a message from a friend that looks like this let your friend know they have been hacked. Do not forward it to anyone else and for goodness sakes, don’t call the number or give anyone your personal information! 

Safety is not just about wearing a mask.

And that, my friend, is how these scams work – and how careful we have to be about whom we text for information. A simple Google search can often be the best thing you do if that little voice inside you says “really?” and you don’t have to be an MIT grad to figure it all out.

I hope you found this as eye-opening as I did. Have a gentle weekend and I’ll return here Monday. Please do share this and be careful, won’t you?

Just a thought… Some of the best memories are made in flip-flops. [Kellie Elmore]

Hey – hope you had a relaxing and rejuvenating weekend. I am a day late for Grandparents’ Day, and it’s never been on our radar, but trust me, we had three of the best of our lives last week.

As we look back through the smoke and haze at those beautiful days, today the infernos of the US Pacific Northwest are affecting our air quality (yesterday we were at an ungodly 200 level – which is a “stay the heck inside!” stage) but not threatening our homes and lives. While we see and feel the effects on our lungs, join me today as we draw a metaphorical breath of calm and immense gratitude.

Part of the joy of living on this incredible natural wonder called Vancouver Island is in the discovery of it. Although we’ve so much more to explore, we have visited places as far north and west as the world-renowned rugged surf destination of Tofino, taken gentle hikes along lakes and around majestically massive trees, cycled roads lined with golden verdant corn fields, searched the horizon for whales in Sooke, and actually seen them while staying off the salmon-laden waters of Campbell River.

But the dream Rob and I always harboured was to share these vistas and experiences with family and friends; to see them for the first time through their eyes, and sometimes our own. Last week, the most precious member of our little pod got to share with us the beauty and fun of a place about two hours from our home called Parksville.

Celebrated for its vacation lifestyle and sandy beaches, this small city (pop. 12,000+) is dotted with ocean resorts and playgrounds for visitors of all ages. Finding a room from Labour Day to Wednesday was no small feat; staggered school starts and an island full of staycationing retirees added to the online challenge. But we were lucky and booked a spot with room for three of us. Let the adventure begin!

On the spur of the moment, we decided to wait the hour and board a ferry for the short ride from Brentwood Bay across the Saanich Inlet to start our little vacation on the water actually on the water. Colin loved the experience and some fellow travellers kindly took the shot above.

A few hours later we were unpacked and ready to go. We drove from Tigh-Na-Mara, the cabin/hotel resort where we stayed, to the nearby town and noticed a huge green field, tucking away the location until after our dinner (which was not without drama, as you read here last Thursday).

We returned to that field and brought out a dollar store kite that Colin had been dying to unwrap since getting it weeks earlier.

He and his grandude set out to harness the slight breeze and get it airborne, which they did. I don’t know who was smiling more widely that warm summer evening, the boy or his grandparents. But it was a memory I’ll always cherish.

Of course, the next day there was help from the light winds off the Strait of Georgia and he was able to get the plastic Spider-Man kite easily airborne (with Rob’s MacGyver-ing of a bit of weight onto its tail) for long stretches of time. It was, in a word, perfection.

We played in the sand and got wet to our waists in the chilly but mostly clear waters until it was time to take a break for lunch, more fun in a playground and on a basketball/tennis court and, ultimately, a long walk to play mini-golf.

Exhausted but elated, we wound down with a bubble bath, some birthday cake-flavoured ice cream and the low hum of fans keeping us cool after a 27C day. Sweet dreams, indeed.

After we’d dropped off our boy at his parents’, with a wonderful dinner and huge smiles to greet us, I found myself starting to slip into a bit of a funk. Our summer vacation – as brief and wonderful as it was – had come to an end.

But as the laundry spun quietly in a room nearby and I scrolled through pictures and video taken in my efforts to capture each idyllic summer memory, hopefully forever, I was reminded that the little trip we enjoyed didn’t end with his family getting on a plane to go home. They’re here. We’re together. All we have is time to make memories.

He’s lost a tooth since he got here. His sister has taken her first drunken, determined steps. Life is moving on in the best ways. And no matter how hazy the skies are outside our windows these days, I am seeing and remembering that fact – that immense, utterly wonderful gift – with greater clarity than I’ve ever experienced.

While we miss with even greater depth these days our daughter who brought this boy into our lives, we will never lose sight of the fact that we’ve been, almost miraculously, given the opportunity to be a part of his life with its ferries, tooth fairies, kites and other momentous firsts – like today’s start of a new school year.

Don’t let the smoke and the pains of our past mislead you: the tears in our eyes are from gratitude.

Just a thought… Listen earnestly to anything your children want to tell you, no matter what. If you don’t listen eagerly to the little things when they are little, they won’t tell you the big stuff when they are big, because to them it has always been big stuff. [Catherine M. Wallace]

We’ve had a glorious little getaway with our grandson this week, taking him on a short ferry ride from the Saanich Peninsula over to Mill Bay and up the Trans-Canada another two hours’ drive to get to a beach resort in a sweet little town called Parksville, BC.

Once I’ve gone through some pictures with his parents and sorted out the entire wonderful adventure in my head and heart, I’ll share some indelible moments with you on Monday; for now, let me just say I talked to the brilliant blue skies to say “thanks” plenty of times during those three days that ended yesterday.

Something happened on our first night a little bit “up island” (as we here call a trip north) that really opened my eyes to how very careful we as adults have to be with words, filtering experiences through the eyes and ears of our children in these tumultuous times.

In the car en route to our destination, I talked with Colin at length about just about everything you could imagine. Of course, the conversation turned to COVID, about which he knows plenty from nearly memorizing the TV ads from the government about health and safety and from discussions with his parents.

I asked how he’d feel if they asked him to wear a mask at school this fall; he said that they never did before, so he didn’t think that was going to happen. I explained to this boy, who will be going on a familiarization visit for 90 minutes today at his new school, that no one wore masks back in March because COVID was just beginning. But now, we all do when we go out, so it’s different from the last time he was in class. Of course, that is something he had never considered; why should a five-year-old have to? (We’ll see what the school recommends and he’ll do what they say.)

After we’d unpacked and settled into our hotel, we went to the nearby town and found a Smitty’s family restaurant in which to have dinner. We were surprised – and not in a bad way – at how amazingly they handled safety measures: a rolling cart was put across the end of our booth table, on which our cutlery, condiments and menus were placed. Once we were seated, we picked our items off the trolley; later, our food was put there as well. It was a hands-off way of ensuring that everything we touched had been sanitized and we thought it was brilliant. Kudos to Smitty’s.

Like his Grandad (or “Grandude” as Colin has been calling him since he moved here – something we laughingly suggested to him once after hearing that Paul McCartney’s kids’ offspring call him that) Colin is a leisurely diner. And so as not to surprise him, while he was eating his dinner, I looked at the time and noted that the restaurant was closing in 25 minutes at 7 pm so the staff could go home to spend the evening with their families, and suggested he’d better eat up.

Now, what I said was that the place was closing. What Colin heard was something entirely different.

His lip started to tremble, his eyes filled with tears and he quietly said, “I want to go back to our hotel to eat.” It wasn’t that he felt rushed; sitting across from him, I could clearly see on his face that this wasn’t a child acting up, he was genuinely afraid. When we asked what was wrong he responded, “I don’t want the granola virus!” (Okay, that part was cute.)

This was new. Of course, children are being exposed to different rules and strange circumstances, but Colin dons his masks like a superhero and never argues or resists; he knows he’s keeping himself and others safe from COVID. So what, exactly, was this?

I told Rob that Colin and I needed to take a walk and we put on our masks and got up and left. As we sat out on a curb in the late day sun, I held his hand and we talked about the virus. I told him we were all keeping safe together and that the restaurant was being extra careful so that we wouldn’t catch the virus.

I thought perhaps the trolley had spooked him a little. But there was a piece to the puzzle that was missing, and I didn’t find it until Rob had gotten our food to go, paid the bill and met us outside. The three of us talked some more and here’s how we think it went down:

When Colin heard me say that the restaurant was closing, he put two and two together and came up with it being shut down due to the virus: clearly it was coming to this place and we had to leave! That’s what he inferred from what we’d told him.

As I lay in bed Monday night thinking about it, I recalled doing an impromptu interview with him a few weeks earlier when he was pretending to be on TV doing “Colin’s News” from inside a cut-out Amazon delivery box. He told me, the interviewer, that COVID meant that places were closed and you had to stay outside when someone went in. This had happened countless times with his mommy and daddy; only one went into the store at a time, a request that is still made by many grocery stores, for what they term the family’s “designated shopper.”

He equated closure with COVID. Not the end of a work day, but the virus coming, which meant he wasn’t safe.

After we buckled him into the car, we sat there and talked about what the 7:00 closure actually meant. We apologized for not explaining that more clearly, even though it’s something that even an overthinker like me couldn’t have seen coming. Fortunately, Colin seemed to understand and forgot all about his upset in the five minutes it took us to find a big open park where he and Rob could fly a kite together.

The whole episode at that booth shook us. It reminded me that we often just sort of take for granted what children understand and how they process the tsunami of information – and misinformation – that surrounds them daily, oftentimes bits and pieces that we don’t even realize are getting past their chatter about LEGO superheroes and ice cream flavours.

The aftermath of these past six months, not to mention whatever lies ahead, is something that these children will likely be processing for years to come. I got an email after Tuesday’s letter from K. in which a woman said a friend who’s a teacher in Florida said her kids are adapting and that we all need to “chill.” Children are resilient. Yes, they are (as we well know), but moving on doesn’t mean sweeping half a year’s experiences – the fears, the disruptions, the uncertainly – under the rug.

As for Rob and me, we’ll be more diligent with our words and freer with our explanations from here on in with our sweet boy. As he prepares to start a new year with new lessons, we were reminded that we had some to learn as well.

Thank you for coming by this week and I’ll have a new journal for you on Monday.